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I'm an engineering student who likes to read and write philosophy and poetry as a hobby. Hopefully you'll like something, the poems all have some emotional meaning behind them. Comments appreciated.

Wednesday 29 September 2010

The Meaning

Saying 'I Love You' is my attempt to remind you that I long for a future with you, for your happiness, for you. That I am filled with a feeling of desire and attraction towards you. You are my first priority and my most important long term goal. Having you in my life makes me happy and I hope that the same is true for you.


I offer this Love freely, with hope rather than expectation for your feelings in return. I understand that you are free to love me but also to withdraw from it and go your own way. I wish you to be free to be yourself and to do what you want to do.


I do not hold onto expectations of how our future will pan out, it is but a hope. By declaring that I Love You, I am not declaring that I have ownership or control over you or that you are in any way obligated to remain by my side. Instead, I wish that you accept my Love and do with it as you desire.


It is in Loving you, exactly as you are now and not wishing or hoping for what you will become in the future, that I offer myself to you. I do, however, support your desire for growth and understand change, accepting that change is both inevitable and unknown.


I respect your right to have your own feelings, opinions and desires and respect your need to make your own decisions and learn your own lessons. I will be here to be called upon if and when you need me and will not arbitrarily impose my own terms on your decisions.


I seek to understand my own emotions and feelings and to communicate them to you as best I can with humility. I will seek to be open and honest about just about everything.


I accept a responsibility to you to be reliable and strong in the face of difficulties. I have a responsibility to remain consistently reliable and to make efforts to improve your life now, and your future.


My ultimate priority in this life is that you be happy. If you'd be happier without me, you are welcome to leave and find your happiness elsewhere. If you achieve this I will be glad for you.


I appreciate that we are two separate people, choosing perhaps to walk hand-in-hand for this time and I enjoy the moments we share together. We will always be two separate people but in saying 'I Love You' I am attempting to narrow the gap between us.


No other three words do I mean so truly, so deeply, so powerfully. When I say 'I Love You' I mean to reinforce and remind you of everything we have that is so very special to me. This feeling won't ever disappear. It can become dormant or shift into another form of love, but it wont leave.


The words 'I Love You' are the everyday reminder of my loyalty to you and are my promise to uphold the values set by those words. They are a promise that my feelings for you match what is described above and more. They are a reminder of the many ways in which I strive for perfection for you. You are everything to me.


I Love You

Saturday 25 September 2010

Not Afraid

I'm not afraid of who might see,
Who might know, or who'll judge me.
I'm not in control of what goes on inside,
This feeling is now much too potent to hide.

A long time unsure, so full of denial,
Not willing to accept what I'd known for a while.
What could have been more, if we'd met differently,
Just why can't it be how we want it to be?

There's challenges to face, and not much is known,
We can fight on each day, not ever alone.
Whatever happens now, I'll never regret,
It's not perfect by far but it's yours and mine yet.

There's room to grow, and each other to learn,
A lifetime of love and happiness to earn.
Trust in me now, this is only the start,
Come what may, I'll never break your heart.

Sunday 19 September 2010

I Want To Be With You

"I want to be with you."
That small sentence alone doesn't even begin to do justice to the meaning that can be put behind it when somebody tells you, with every piece of their heart, that they want to be with you. It means more than a desire for your presence, but also that they want to hold you in their arms tonight, kiss your lips right now, stroke your hair and feel your presence as you lie there in the wondrous feeling. Wanting to feel your skin against theirs, your breath on their neck, your hands in theirs. Wanting to be your partner for life. It can say that they crave being with you, but not only that, they long to spend days with you, months, years, a lifetime. To spend days going for long walks on the beach, in the forest, through the city, everywhere, anywhere. Wanting to waste mornings away, just lying in bed, watching movies or cuddling up together, keeping each other warm. To spend evenings going for romantic dinners with you or enjoying quiet nights in, making love to you, going on wild nights out and having hot passionate sex. Wanting to get home from stressful hard days working and have you there. Just being there would make everything so much better. Wanting to be there when you need them, when you're down, comfort you, work with you through everything. Wanting so much to share the times when you are on top of the world, when you'd both just want to shout and scream to the world about how much Love you feel. Wanting to see the days when everything just seems to feel right, like everything is in place, how it should be, and feel the most secure and comfortable its possible to feel. Having the desire to take care of you when you're sick, miss you when you're away, calm you when you're stressed. To to see the world with you, ride the fastest roller coasters and river rapids with you, lie out on the beaches everywhere and anywhere with you. Reaching the ultimate in Love for you, which can grow with time from this point forever. To marry you. To have children with you, love them, look after them, keep them safe and teach them what you can. Wanting to have your own house with a garden, your own life, your own family. Wanting to get to know you in the most intimate detail, and Love you for everything you are. Wishing you to be their past, present and future, their life, their objective; an end in yourself. Wanting to be with you in every single way, with every single piece of their being, physically, mentally, emotionally, and more. If somebody tells you they Love You, and want to be with you, don't ever underestimate what that might mean.