Darkest days

Embrace every morsel of love you receive,

Survive in the darkness of lonely days.

Endure through it all and always believe,

Happiness lies just beyond the haze.

When all we had hoped and had dreamed is lost,

What's left of me is but an empty shell.

I could not comprehend how much losing you'd cost,

My broken heart can't bare this brutal hell.

In the hours of night that I dream, I never want to wake.

Asleep, I forget what I've lost, my pain numbs.

As the truth set's in, I want to scream; 'For fuck's sake!',

I relapse and to tears my will succumbs.

On the surface I'm calm, I remain in control,

I smile, I seem normal, I move along.

Underneath, the chaos goes deep into my soul,

Every moment, in agony, feels so wrong.

If only you knew, or maybe it wouldn't matter,

Please help me get out of this wreck, I've tried.

I want you, I need you, it feels more like the latter,

It's down to you or to time, only you can decide.

I said I wasn't going anywhere, I feel like I lied,

But I know I'll never fully let go.

If you need me then call, my life set aside,

I'll be there. This I want you to know.

On My Mind

I'm thinking about you a lot lately,

It makes me ever so happy,

I love you more than words can say,

Or actions could ever display.

Awake here now in the middle of the night,

I write this to you in hopes that it might,

bring a smile to your face and warmth to your heart,

And remind you that soon'll be the day it all starts.

I'm desperately waiting, it approaches fast.

The day we will be together at last.

When the distance between us vanishes,

That day I hope for my last first kiss.